Your Sherpa Will Abandon You And Leave You For Dead

by Wildflowers of the Mojave

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recorded at foxhole mansion, the sweat shop, & sweet mimi's place
drums recorded/engineered at duke city sound, adel vocals recorded at adel's house, pianos recorded at rio grande presbyterian
all music/words/production by s. "faith" roberts
cover art by calvary fisher

S. "FAITH" ROBERTS- vocals, guitar, harmonica, piano, synths, theremini, violin (9), ukulele, banjo (5)
AIDAN HENDRICKSON - singing saw, singing pans, bones, magic shaker, engineering
MATT KLETECKA - bass (2-3,5,8-11), guitar (5), vocals (9)
ANDY CARSON BROWN - drums (1-3,5), vocals (3,10-11)
JORDAN HERRON - flute
ELLERY WEUST - trombone
CHIARA BROKAW - vocals (1-3,9-10)
ADEL BENGO - vocals (4,6,12)
ANDY HERMAN - drums (4,7,9-11)
CODY LUTZ - banjo (2)
PATRICK GOFF - sax
CALVARY FISHER - mandolin & screaming
KAYLA MATTEUCCI - piano (7)
DAVID JIO - additional production (8)
LILLIAN DEITERMAN - sitar
INSUN BLEMEL - bass (9)
RACHEL BURDOFF - woodland spirit calls (8)
DYLAN HENDRICKSON - trumpet (3)
ARMIN BOROUJERDI - mouth harp
JONATHAN ANDERSON - drum engineering

thanks shirley madrid, gary herron, robby herron,
sharon himmelstein, bruce hendrickson, kerry pine,
olivia stenholm, jake killay, kyler christie & all em doghouse folk,
xazziel martinez, tarynn di’nnovati, elias mcentire,
philippa-lois amoa, ian sandlin, daniel juarez, fabiha sabin,
etienne rouleau, & momma

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released May 31, 2017

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Track Name: The World Is Not Ours To Love
the world is not ours to love
so treat her as a child, don't fuck her up
for you, a thousand miles to spend
i know it's hard to believe that your death is not the end
Track Name: Holy Mountain
another fatal shooting down this road, come one and all to see
who's the killer, who'd he kill? just hope he doesn't come for me
either way i say, who cares? i only came to stir the heat
of this here bonfire with my bic and gasoline

after john doe's swept away and all his guts are in the trash
we'll go home with empty hands until we warm them for the next attack
and sharpen up our pitchforks lined with the blood from yesterday,
we'll send some neo-nazis hopeless on the way

and i'm like "holy mountain, hear us shoutin'
oh my god i hope that i'ma saved
but most of all i hope that you'll explain"

why's this man here bein' spit at? why's that woman being raped? they've done nothing to deserve it,
(guess that's why they get it all the same)
the innocent vermilions in the stream of life perceived among the grain are always floorboards in the rain

well the more i think i understand, the less i really know
that's the pain of being human, still i'm glad my thumbs oppose
so that i can push more buttons and take pictures of my flesh exposed and send them out to other people's phones

then i'm like "holy mountain, hear us drownin'
oh my god i hope that i'ma saved
but most of all i hope i get my raise"

oh, it seems humanity's uncurable disease is just what keep us goin' on,
and if you stiff yourself undoubtedly some devil's gonna take those keys and run
oh hun, i guess when all is said and done, we're all just hopes and dreams a' wedded to the sun

well the more i think about these facts, the more i wanna cry
when every good and poor decision fits the same inside a needle's eye,
it almost seems like i could turn the pages back, white-out in hand,
and change all of these hadn'ts into hads...

well thank my stars i made it this far to illuminate at last
throw confetti from your rooftops, turn your problems into plans
i don't wanna die, don't have the time, there's still too many days to find
another way this species could advance

and i'm like "holy mountain, you gonna teach me anything?
cause' oh my god i hope that i'ma saved
but most of all i hope that you'll explain"
Track Name: Dear Jesus
dear jesus christ:

if you were right then i'm sorry for this but it seems i can't exist without contesting you... as you know for me the same is true
i have no right to tell you what i think is right at all
compared to you i'm small, time knows i'm going to lose
but why can't we just both agree that it's not about doing what you love but how it lives? that it's not about giving what you got but how it gives? why can't we just both i think i'm gonna carry my own damn cross by the side of the road with my fears and depraved convictions, and i will nail my own sick thoughts into my skin, i will carve my name in stone on the mountain alone with my prayers and my grievances, and i will hang my head up high beside your throne

blessed star, i know i fell so far, but i never meant to hurt you darling, you walked in and i saw you grin so i followed you
yes i followed...

oh holy blessed, i have no soul just the heart in my chest pumping blood and regret and it's no place for you dear... why do you let me live at all? why don't you throw me in a whale and count the days until i scream out for help? why don't you kill me now before i give my heart away to somebody else? we are hardened to start and then unraveled by the hands of knowledge... and hardened again but you know i'm still just gonna carry my own damn cross by the side of the road with my fears and depraved convictions, i'm gonna nail my own sick thoughts into my skin, i will carve my name in stone on the mountain alone with my prayers and my grievances, and i will bind my mother's son beside the altar

blessed star, i know i fell so far, but i never meant to hurt you darling, you walked in and i saw you grin so i followed you...
yes i followed you...

well wouldn't it be nice to find one hundred seven billion happy faces in the sky and we could dance and sing forever with these spirits in our eyes? but i just don't believe it any more than i believe in lobsters on my ceiling wearing purple caps and baking cupcakes with darjeeling i'm so sorry g, i just don't know what i've been saying lately but someday i pray that i sing more pious songs about you, really hope that i was wrong and i can finally say to you that you were fine (i was just so out of line) yeah you were fine (i was just so out of line) yeah you were fine (i was just so out of line and afraid... yeah i was afraid. . . y e a h i was afraid of you)
Track Name: My Soul
you make me feel like i'm a jewel
but you are my god, i am your tool
and i've always known that you saved me
i love you farther than the eyes can see

and when it's cold you hold me tight
and when it's dark you shine the light
but you scare me when you're not here
you turn my world into a fantasy

you make me feel like i'm on fire
but you told me i would never die...
Track Name: Southwest Mercurial
i was fishing for my diamond ring when i found you instead
just a stranger from a foreign spring before the zombies broke in
you took my hand and you drove me to the right of passage
but when i closed my eyes you just shook my hand and walked away

and i awoke from a sleepless casket to the sound of gunfire
down below on the rio grande i saw people floating by
now i recalled revelations of a thousand countries
but in the dying dream i could only hear you sweetly sigh

now there were
so many scared ugly people hiding in the railyards,
so many scared ugly people running away,
so many scared ugly people mailing them postcards,
but me i just wanted to rest in peace that day

i resigned to my feral state, where i ate the scales off of snakeskin
that was when i found the city gate, and the lock was broken
for a second there i swear i was on some grand vacation
but when i found your place i was greeted by a pair of holes

i screamed your name from the old gazebo to some flies of town square
i ran down to the stream that night and i saw you dancing there
you told me i did great, you said nice job, congratulations
but when i jumped to your embrace all i felt were your rushing waves

and i admit so many times i wanted to bite you
and i admit so many times i cried
and i admit for so long i've been trying to find you
but only now i've been wondering why

have you ever found peace of mind from a rock in motion?
have you ever felt an honest breath from a fire approaching?
i tried to fly upstream but the current's always flyin' faster
so when i changed my wing i was captain of the breathing sea

i'll roll down this rio grande until i find mine ocean
i know it's hard, so hard to judge, but i know i'm getting close
you see, yesterday i found a seashell in the river basin
and from its spirally depths i could almost hear my diamond ring

so so long to all you scared ugly people
so long to mr. and mrs. i wanna quit and rot away
so long to everyone who thinks that they're a nomad and
say hello to mr. going to walk this rain
Track Name: Home, Why Do You Call It Home?
home, why do you call it home?
last i checked, all i found was flesh and bone,
your bike rack in the back by the kitchen stove
where do you think you are?
where do you think you are?
where do you think you are
no place like home, no place, baby

mirth and fear, where can i meet these faces?
last i checked, i found clouds in cloudy spaces,
water in the fields, and magma in vases
where do you think you are?
where do you think you are?
where do you think you are
no place like home, no place,

sometimes it seems like you're more than a melody, baby...
what's a baby?
haven't you heard?
i guess words don't mean much to me
Track Name: Lovehills in Versailles
tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything?
oh tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything?
oh tell me once again... you're not afraid of anything?
'cause i'd be afraid if i'd seen everything

now there are lovehills in versailles
but the car thieves lurk on gold street
yeah there are lovehills in versailles
but the car thieves lurk on gold street
yeah there are lovehills under parasites
and car thieves in cars drive
but you're not afraid of anything
i suppose i'd be the same if i'd seen everything

i'd give it all away just to hide like you
like i know you've been doin'
pretending it's ok, without a clue
you're not revealing...
i'd give it all away but i'd still lose

so you're going solo you got nothin' to hide
you ain't splittin' no fences here but you don't have to try
yeah you're going solo you got time to spend
but this ain't no vacation, there's no end, there's no end

i can see the light... could someone close the curtains please?
i can see the hillside... could somebody close the curtains please?
i can see the light... you vultures of the night...
could somebody close the curtains please?
'cause i think i'm going blind, restrain me

i'd smash a thousand mirrors, i'd break my face
just to know it all and still have a fate
like an eye in the sky on a paper plane
i'm not repeating
i'd give it all away and i'd take a break

"so you're going solo you got nothin' to hide
you ain't splittin' no fences here but you don't have to try
yeah you're going solo you got time to spend
but this ain't no vacation, there's no end, there's no end"
said the preacher to the centaur "i do believe it's time,
climb aboard my chariot, we'll take back the sky"

nerf god, don't tell me it's over
nerf god, don't tell me we're through
nerf god, buy me a coca cola
nerf god, i know i can do
Track Name: Walkthrough
stop
take a walk, and listen to the chime
listen to the edge of the night
don't be alarmed, there's nothing here to harm you
save for the arms behind you

step towards the night, i will follow you there
keeping your string wrapped around your finger
if you've forgotten where you are, remember where you started
the rest is frozen solid
and as tempting as it seems, don't tangle in the dreams
they'll always be behind you

you, you were kind when i needed to be
step toward the arms of angels
if you ever lose your string, don't cry it's meant to be
wait before the gleam, and
i will find
i will find
i will find
i will find
i will find
i will find

there you are
Track Name: Party In Guyana
well hot shot roller from winnipeg, tobago
forget about your present, the past just wants to tango,
and the future doesn't care much about anything at all
well i hear you're in a space where two spaces condemn you
forget about your problems, 'cause papa will resurrect you
there's a PARTY in GUYANA, and everyone's invited,
especially you

but just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's true
if everybody was you, what would you do?
just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's me
if everybody could see that, what would you believe?

step outside to the party on the streets,
they're throwing con-fu-fu-fu-fu-fetti, they're staining them sheets,
and there's MILK and HONEY, flowin' above me,
c'mon check it out girl you know it's just amazing
would you tell me what you want?
tell me what you need?
tell me how i can get it 'cause you know i will retrieve
because i LOVE you
we all LOVE you
everybody LOVEs you

but just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's true
if everybody was you, what would you do?
just 'cause i said something, don't mean it's me
if everybody could see that, what would you believe?

light my world up, 'cause all i wanna do is shine matthias, all i wanna do is keep on shinin'
Track Name: No Survivors, No Solutions
johnny saw a chicken today crossing the road so he swerved out of its way, died in a car crash, i guess it's only meant to happen one way danny set a napkin on fire just to show the world his burning desire but now he doesn't have a face, save for his picture on the fireplace
how are you so stupid? how are you so pitiful?

well what i mean to say is we are spiders, weaving marvelous webs under bathroom tile and we are geysers spouting nonsense and clogging up the PRISM wires

i met the devil today, he shook my hand, went on his way, slaughtered some kid... i bet i'll hear it on the news tomorrow man, how we'll kill him, chop up the bones, boil the rest to baby food, call it redemption, but i know in hell we'll sing in perfect unison uh oh ah huuah! o no no no no

well what i meant to say was we are monsters, worse than zombies or whatever you read we are lovers, sweeter than christians and their puppies too

my favorite joke is the human, doin' what he love to save or destroy the world (depending on opinion) well either way they make great shit and children man you're so ruthless, locking your doors in the name of some fate protection just let the cocks die maybe tonight we'll have some deep-fried chicken

how are you so sick? how are you so beautiful?
i'll let the tombstone say
no survivors, no solutions, only mortal fumes and
no conceptions, no conclusions, only time to choose
Track Name: My Cyst
today, i awoke with the strangest erection
when momma stormed in goin' on 'bout the end of the world again,
so i went to the loo
so i could finish my business as i usually do
and that's where i found you lying there without a clue

now i believe in god for two

the first time we ever met we were naked and oh so unafraid of it
now we're just afraid, trapped in a thousand miles of shame
but tonight, there is no fright,
there are no gunshots or minefields to be haunting your life
there are only bells waving my fair cyst farewell, farewell

now i believe in god for two
i know i owe this much to you